Thanks for the kind words everyone! 
This is less of a cry for help than me coming to terms with who I am musically. I always thought of myself as a metal head (and I still love a lot of metal) and playing guitar is what you do when you're into metal. But it must have been nearly 20 years ago that I last wrote a song.
But I find that I just enjoy making electronic music much more. I love the sounds and all the ways I can manipulate them, I love how I can just jam by myself and have it sound like actual music instead of someone going chug-meedley alone on a guitar, I love how I can tell the machines what to do and just chill out to a two hour generative ambient piece while slowly changing things.
I just watched Thomann's video on hypnotic techno and I can't wait to get off work and play with my synths.

This is less of a cry for help than me coming to terms with who I am musically. I always thought of myself as a metal head (and I still love a lot of metal) and playing guitar is what you do when you're into metal. But it must have been nearly 20 years ago that I last wrote a song.
But I find that I just enjoy making electronic music much more. I love the sounds and all the ways I can manipulate them, I love how I can just jam by myself and have it sound like actual music instead of someone going chug-meedley alone on a guitar, I love how I can tell the machines what to do and just chill out to a two hour generative ambient piece while slowly changing things.
I just watched Thomann's video on hypnotic techno and I can't wait to get off work and play with my synths.