Since this thread got resurrected, I decided to give an update of sorts.
A lot has changed since I first posted these musings ...and the tail end of the cannabis season curtailed my r and b dreams....and the purchase of a new headless kind of put me into metal/ambient territory for a minute.
Along with my other rig experiments....I kind of rekindled my love of music and performing music.
The do something challenge got me going in earnest, and now I think I have some direction and some reasonable goals to work towards.
I have some projects I had in my mind for a long time, and now these are my focus going forward. These will be completely separate projects of various detail and seriousness, but require all the tools I like to use....as well as move my other hobbies forward.
So even though I set a goal, and didn't achieve it, I gained direction and clarity...and this is even better than I expected.
Thank you all for being my online encouragers....I appreciate you and your fellowship!