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I never experienced writer’s block before the last year and man, does that sh*t suck!
I got divorced last year and it was a f*cking mess. This week was the one-year mark of moving into my apartment and the same time I started buying gear like a madman. I bought more gear in the last 365 days than I have in 28 years and can confidently say that new gear does NOT bring forth motivation, for me, anyway.
The 6 years leading up to it were the most creative of my life, I quit my last band in 2016 and built a small home studio where I’d hang out for hours at a time every day and there didn’t seem to be an end to the amount of music coming out of me. Once July 2021 hit, it was like someone shut the hose off. I had actually started therapy 2 months prior because I knew what was coming down the road and I ended up taking it very seriously due to my reaction when the ball dropped as I almost took myself out and never wanted to get that close to the edge again.
I had assumed that all this mental work I was doing would help open me up more, but that definitely wasn’t the case. Maybe socially, but definitely not creatively. I’d sit in my studio noodling to a click trying to find something interesting to develop and it never came. It was a good 6 months that I barely even touched a guitar unless it was a new one I bought and then it was mostly just sitting on the couch for 30 minutes until I got bored. I joined a cover band to get me out of my apartment and to play guitar live again, that was fun, but did nothing for the creativity. Around the 6 month mark I was picking up my guitar for hours and noodling away, I have hundreds of riffs I recorded on my phone during that time but in the last year I only managed to force out two songs that do not sound very inspired to me listening now.
I don’t know if I just had to get past this last week or what the deal was, but last night I felt like someone turned the hose back on full blast. Wednesday would have been my 3rd wedding anniversary and I was feeling off that whole day, despite not really feeling much of anything negative in regards to the past for quite some time. But when I woke up Thursday, something felt different and all day long I just wanted to go home and sit in my studio. When I got home, within 4 hours I had finished tracking a song, re-arranged another into something I enjoy, re-tracked guitars and bass for two others and started a new one. I only stopped because a buddy stopped by with some beers, but I got more work done in that 4 hours than I did the entire last year.
I try to take some kind of lesson away from the sh*ttier periods of life to not repeat the past, but I really can’t find a lesson in any of this aside from ”Don’t f*ckin’ get married again.” No amount of therapy, meditation, bong rips….JFC, I tried going 2 weeks without poppin’ one off just to see if that’d help my creativity and it did nothing but make me feel like a horny teenager . I guess I just had to wait for time to flush it out like the giant turd it all was. All I want to do is go home and finish what I started last night!
Anyone else dealt with writer’s block in the past or are dealing with it now?
I got divorced last year and it was a f*cking mess. This week was the one-year mark of moving into my apartment and the same time I started buying gear like a madman. I bought more gear in the last 365 days than I have in 28 years and can confidently say that new gear does NOT bring forth motivation, for me, anyway.
The 6 years leading up to it were the most creative of my life, I quit my last band in 2016 and built a small home studio where I’d hang out for hours at a time every day and there didn’t seem to be an end to the amount of music coming out of me. Once July 2021 hit, it was like someone shut the hose off. I had actually started therapy 2 months prior because I knew what was coming down the road and I ended up taking it very seriously due to my reaction when the ball dropped as I almost took myself out and never wanted to get that close to the edge again.
I had assumed that all this mental work I was doing would help open me up more, but that definitely wasn’t the case. Maybe socially, but definitely not creatively. I’d sit in my studio noodling to a click trying to find something interesting to develop and it never came. It was a good 6 months that I barely even touched a guitar unless it was a new one I bought and then it was mostly just sitting on the couch for 30 minutes until I got bored. I joined a cover band to get me out of my apartment and to play guitar live again, that was fun, but did nothing for the creativity. Around the 6 month mark I was picking up my guitar for hours and noodling away, I have hundreds of riffs I recorded on my phone during that time but in the last year I only managed to force out two songs that do not sound very inspired to me listening now.
I don’t know if I just had to get past this last week or what the deal was, but last night I felt like someone turned the hose back on full blast. Wednesday would have been my 3rd wedding anniversary and I was feeling off that whole day, despite not really feeling much of anything negative in regards to the past for quite some time. But when I woke up Thursday, something felt different and all day long I just wanted to go home and sit in my studio. When I got home, within 4 hours I had finished tracking a song, re-arranged another into something I enjoy, re-tracked guitars and bass for two others and started a new one. I only stopped because a buddy stopped by with some beers, but I got more work done in that 4 hours than I did the entire last year.
I try to take some kind of lesson away from the sh*ttier periods of life to not repeat the past, but I really can’t find a lesson in any of this aside from ”Don’t f*ckin’ get married again.” No amount of therapy, meditation, bong rips….JFC, I tried going 2 weeks without poppin’ one off just to see if that’d help my creativity and it did nothing but make me feel like a horny teenager . I guess I just had to wait for time to flush it out like the giant turd it all was. All I want to do is go home and finish what I started last night!
Anyone else dealt with writer’s block in the past or are dealing with it now?